Perhaps, I sometimes get into life, meaning, and theological/philosophical thinking way above my "pay grade."
Do you ever over-agonize the bigger, deeper, loftier issues in the land of awe and wonder? It is not a call the shallow thinking or disengagement of our intellect, but a reminder of the limits of our consciousness. We come to the end of our capacity where we integrate, frustrate, of meditate. It is there where we can emancipate ourselves from a world of care by becoming children again, resting as with our mother, not quite an infant, but not yet big kids either, just little children. There, we are hopeful.
In a disturbing, confusing, complex, and deeply divided world, we are not going to figure it all out. We are set in a far more chaotic universe where the order of things does not always readily appear. But we must live daily and daily, we must make little decisions.
How do we calm and quiet our souls when we want to take charge and fix everything and issues vie for our attention and everyone is shouting their own opinions at each other and we somehow long for non-synthetic synthesis and quiet?
We keep ascending and we consciously, keep resting and hoping in God.
And we keep reminding ourselves that some fixes will always be above our pay grades.
"A Song of Ascents. Of David.
O LORD, my heart is not lifted up;
my eyes are not raised too high;
I do not occupy myself with things
too great and too marvelous for me.
But I have calmed and quieted my soul,
like a weaned child with its mother;
like a weaned child is my soul within me.
O Israel, hope in the LORD
from this time forth and forevermore."
-Psalm 131 ESV