There is something very right and something somewhat wrong about this scenario: When a crisis occurs in the world, there is an urge to pack up and go, or to at least to write a very big check. Many share that urge. But we are constrained by time commitments, lack of preparation, and enormous personal debt.
My life and priorities keep changing. It all started when I prepared to turn 50, then 55, then 60 and now, looking toward 62. I am thinking I need to make an effort to live loose, live light, and live large.
Living loose means to take life as it comes and to be able to join Isaiah in his declaration, "Here I am; send me."
If we live loose, we plan and implement our plans, but we do not become so attached to our plans that they take precedence over our purpose for living. Strategies are vital to our goals, but they change. They must not rule us. Calendars represent commitments to be honored, but there must be some flexibility built into our rigid lives.
Living loose means living in a state of readiness to respond to God's call through the suffering of the world.
Living loose may mean having a passport ready at all times. I don't have that. It may mean having contingencies plans and back up prepared for our routine commitments.
Mostly it is an attitude.
I need to live light. Too often we are guided by our limitations. We have created many of those limitations through compulsive spending, mismanagement of credit, consumer greed, and appetites out of control. I have wasted thousands of dollars for which I have little to show.
What do we really need? What is interfering with our ability to give when a need arises?
How can we lighten our loads and live simpler, more rewarding and satisfying lives?
Not only debt, but possessions and expectations of comfort and pleasure can tie us down.
So can mismanaged health and wellness. We are often just too out of shape to be ready to respond. I, for one, abused my body through years of eating too much of the wrong food and failure to push myself beyond my comfort level in exercise.
These are seemingly innocent sins, but they effect our availability.
In the past, I have not lived light. Yet, in recent years, I have been experiencing an emptying of myself before God. It has been obvious on the physical level, but it has informed my soul and my spirit.
The sad consequence of the past, however, is that barring a miracle, I could not financially, physically, or professionally get on a plane tomorrow and fly to anywhere in the world where a crisis might erupt.
Neither do I have the money in the bank to write a big check. I will write a check, but it will not be what I could have written if I had lived more wisely and lightly.
There are skills I ought to require, but there is the ever-present excuse: When can I find the time?
Where does anyone find time? We make time.
Living large means we take the world into our hearts and let it expand us beyond ourselves. It means growing toward a God-sized concern for the pain of humanity. It means weeping with those who weep and rejoicing with those who rejoice. It means thinking globally and eternally.
Living large means loving our neighbors as ourselves.
We love ourselves. We pamper ourselves, indulge ourselves, and fatten ourselves. In the process, we destroy ourselves for usefulness. We need to find a new way of loving ourselves that embraces the whole world. We need to transform our love of self into something that feeds a new self, a servant self, a more fulfilled and joyful self that is available to God and others.
As we change ourselves and love ourselves that way, we can love and change the world.
Live loose; live light; live large!